Thankful

Linking up with MamaKat today: 4.) Something you’re thankful for this week.

Last week I had a bit of an emotional breakdown. I think the combination of two new jobs, two in junior high, lack of sleep and rest, depression kicking in overdrive because of, well, see above, struggling to keep my head above water with all that is required of me and just feeling like I’m not good enough finally got to me. When I feel like this, I can’t breathe. I get inside my head and I can’t get out.

I am so thankful that I have a true partner by my side to help me through. He could hear it in my voice when he called on his way home from work to say hi. I love that he calls me on his way home. It makes me feel as though I’m so special that he can’t wait 20 more minutes until he gets home to talk to me. I especially appreciate it during weeks when I feel like a crazy person and I’m not sure why he puts up with me. He got home, we went for a walk just the two of us, and talked it out. He is such a good listener and he is so wise. Sometimes it’s annoying just how wise he is, but it’s true. He always knows what I need and he always calms me down.

I could write pages and pages of the reasons why he is such a wonderful person to share my life with. I really could. But it all boils down to this: he truly loves me. Unconditionally, warts and all. For whatever reason, he thinks I’m amazing and beautiful and worthy. I struggle to believe it but he makes me believe it. I feel as though, with him by my side, I can be me. I’m not sure what I did to deserve this man of mine, but I’m so very thankful that he is mine.