Listen, Universe

“It’s only by starting in a place of peace that we find our purpose and power.”

— Martha Beck

Over the past few weeks I’ve really been putting a few really big wishes out into the universe. I don’t want to share (yet) what these wishes are, but they’re big. Wishes that could change my whole life. Changes that I really want to happen.

You want to hear the crazy part? I think the universe is listening.

You want to know why I think it’s listening? Because I am finally at peace with myself.

“No one can ever take from you…the assurance that you are enough, that you are the joy the world needs.”

— Samantha Page

I finally truly believe in my core that I am perfect just the way I am. I am perfect in my imperfectness if that makes sense. I have confidence that I’ve never had before. My strength in myself just continues to grow. I have a peace I’ve never had before. Maybe it’s age, maybe it’s acceptance, maybe it’s putting myself first for the first time in a long time, maybe it’s a combination of everything.

But I’m there and I couldn’t be happier.

Do I still have bad days? Of course, everyone does and it would be weird if I didn’t. Do I still look in the mirror sometimes and wish I had my 19-year-old stomach back or that those lines around my mouth would disappear? Of course! Are there days when I lose my temper with Matt or the kids? You bet! But the difference is now I accept it instead of trying to fight. I accept it instead of convincing myself that somehow that makes me a bad person and an unworthy person. I have flaws, I am not perfect and guess what? It’s totally OK. Better than OK.

Because that’s me. And I am exactly who I am supposed to be.

So listen, universe. I’m ready for big things.

“The most satisfying project you will ever undertake—and a mark of a complete human being—is to discover how to build a sense of happiness that no one can take away from you…”

— Deepak Chopra