I sit in a room of 80 people and I know every single one of them but I feel left out and alone.
There are days when I’d do just about anything not to have to get out of bed and deal with the day.
I am so tired that I think I’m dying…but I don’t Google it.
If I could just lose 10 lbs, get a new pair of shoes, go shopping, get my nails done, whatever, I’ll feel better.
I think I need to go talk to a psychiatrist…but when on Earth would I fit that in? Plus, do I really need one or would it be a waste? Maybe I just need new meds? Or a break? Or a good night’s sleep? Or an attitude adjustment?
I feel like I could have been a better Mom that day. But I just don’t see how. I’m totally spent.
I just want to spend time alone with my husband. And not at Costco.
I want more time with my kids on some days and I want them to go away so I can be alone on other days.
I feel like I’m not enough. For anyone. For me.
I’m tired of worrying about everything and everyone all the time.
I can’t keep up with everything. I can’t remember all the dates, appointments, projects and homework assignments. I just can’t.
I need to say no. Way more often.
I’ve got to just be. I’ve got to just enjoy right now because it’s all I’ve got. I can’t worry about this afternoon even. Just right now.
Is it just me?