to lose 15 pounds. Don’t yell at me. I’m not fat. But I don’t like this weight at all. So I’m doing it. Luckily for me, Matt wants to lose weight too so we’re doing it together. We’re trying the Dukan method. I’ll let you know if I go insane or not during the first few weeks. Matt will probably lose 20 lbs in two days and then I’ll be a maniacal bitch while I try to lose 5 in a month. We’ll see.
to be able to wear a bikini even if I never will actually do it. See the first statement.
to be able to fall asleep and stay asleep without taking Tylenol PM. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am so exhausted I can’t stand it and yet I can’t fall asleep. I try reading, saying words over and over again, praying, everything, and nothing works. If I do by some miracle fall asleep, I wake up multiple times throughout the night with tons of thoughts going through my head and I can’t fall back asleep. I’m so sleep-deprived it’s not even funny.
to say yes and no like I mean it. I say yes to too many things that I’d really like to say no to. I need to learn to say no. I don’t need to explain myself, I can just say no. I say yes way too often. It will make those “yes” answers so much more meaningful.
to learn to relax. I’m terrible at relaxing. I love reading and usually do that to relax but I need other methods too. I’m terrible at quiet and doing nothing. Matt got me a “Saturday Survival Kit” for Christmas with gift cards for manicures, pedicures, spray tans, fancy coffee and massages. He won’t let me save them either. He wants to me to use them and use them up now. He’s my biggest champion, I’m telling you. These ought to go a long way in helping me relax don’t you think?
to continue to be nicer to myself. Don’t let me wanting to lose weight fool you. I’m being much nicer to myself these days. I’m going to keep working on that.
to continue to put so much effort into my marriage. It’s hard for me to believe that after almost 14 years of marriage, it just keeps getting better. But it does. And I’m going to continue that trend so we’re the happiest bunch of old folks you’ve ever met.
to continue to make motherhood my number one priority. There are times when I’d like a different job that I would enjoy more. Or spend more time with friends. Or just be alone. And all of those are just fine, but my main focus is my family. I will continue to be the best Mom I know how to be.
to write a book. I have 3 in my head and I need and want to get them on paper. I just don’t do it. I’m going to do it this year.
to get a new camera. I have my eye on one. I’m really enjoying taking photos of the kids and families who have given me the privilege. I want to take it to the next level and I need a new camera. I’m saving right now!
to be thankful for each day. What is that saying? The days are long but the years are short? It’s so true and I don’t want to miss a minute.
What are your “I want” statements for this year? I won’t hold you to them. 😉