You’ll Feel It

When I had you, I “got it”. I finally understood how much my Mom loved me. I always felt it, I always knew it, but at that moment, I understood it. And it blew me away. My Mom loved me like this? Whoa.

Will you ever know, truly know, how much I love you? You won’t ever have a child of your own and that, frankly, breaks my heart. Bcause you won’t experience this, will you ever truly know how much I love you?

Will you know how you changed my life just by being born? There was a fork in the road, a major fork, where I could have chosen to be bitter and sad and angry at life or I could choose to live. I chose to live and live happily and live life to the fullest. You were my inspiration for living. Will you ever know that?

Will you know that you cemented a marriage? It’s crazy to me that we were only 3 years in when you were born. What did we know about marriage? Nothing. Nothing at all. You’ve taught us everything. You took a good marriage and made it a great one. One that will last no matter what. Will you ever understand that?

Will you know that you changed your brothers’ lives for the better? They don’t know anything different other than having you for a sister. It makes me so happy to see them blossom into these wonderful, caring, empathetic young men. I can imagine what kind of husbands and fathers they will be and it makes me so filled with joy I almost can’t stand it. Will you ever know it’s because of you that they are who they are?

Will you know how many lives you’ve touched? How many opinions you’ve changed? How many people feel better and more full of joy just by knowing you? Do you know that you light up a room with your smile, your laugh, your funny turn of phrase? Will you know that countless people will choose to work with kids with special needs because of you? Will you ever know how amazing you are?

You might not. You might not ever understand or truly know all that you’ve done. But I promise you one thing. You’ll feel it.


18 responses to “You’ll Feel It

  1. How are you writing this beautifully when you are sick as a dog?!?! Once again you have moved me to tears. Happy tears. Have I ever told you how jealous I am of you? Of your attitude, your optimism, your strength, your amazing writing, of your marriage? I know your life is not perfect, but I know you are happy. Most of the time :o) You inspire me to be happier, to be stronger, to quit complaining and much more. So glad to have you as a friend (even though I don’t see you nearly enough!)

  2. This brought tears to my eyes. So beautiful! I feel the same way, and the way you put it in to words, wow!

  3. So beautiful. I feel the exact same way about Parker.

    Tammy and Parker
    @ParkerMama on Twitter

  4. That sweet girl changed me. There is not a moment of time that I spent with her that I do not remember. She is a beautiful soul and I am thankful for every day that I’ve known her. This post made me smile, cry and get goosebumps. Beautiful.

  5. She will feel it! She is indeed an amazing blessing to the world. We are ALL better for her and it is impossible to give as much as she does and not feel it in return!


  6. Absolutely heart warming, goose-bump giving, misty eye producing, honesty that I have always loved about you. I love your sweet girl and I am so glad to be one of the “ones who feel better and more full of joy” just knowing her 🙂

  7. I have these same questions about my son. There are still so many things I hope for him. For me, you say it all in that last paragraph.

  8. I loved this!!! What a sweet post Tiff! I too agree that Olivia is an amazing little lady. She definitely moves mountains all the time!

  9. This is absolutely beautiful. As is last picture.

  10. This is beautiful. Love it.
    I know one thing for sure, I’ve fallen in love with Olivia and your boys from reading your blog, and those are just words.

    -Beth WA

  11. Happy SITS Day! What a great post. I have that moment, too. I think it brought me closer to my own mom. We didn’t always get along, but have so well since I’ve had children.

  12. Visiting from SITS. This was well written. You are an amazing lady and your beautiful soul comes out in your blog!

  13. Oh I can’t wait for that feeling. I am so afraid of being a mom at this point but i just know I’ll succeed.

  14. Aaahh, beautiful. Stopped by from SITS. Enjoying your blog!

  15. So amazing. I feel like I could have written these same words. I don’t know what my E’s future holds but on a larger level, they will never know how powerful our love is for them. What they contribute to the lives of everyone around them. I always say E is the soul of our family and Q i(her twin brother) is the rock and they are only 2. To know how precious their lives are breeds a love like noone can ever know until you feel it and that’s just the point isn’t it, they feel it from you. You boys, you, your hubby are lucky to have Olivia and in the same vein she is most certainly so luck to have all of you. Happy SITs day.

  16. Crying….
    And feeling so very lucky to know Olivia….

  17. This resonated with me…

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