After lots of first dates but no seconds, I thought I’d never find love.
After my miscarriage with my first pregnancy, I thought I’d never have kids.
After Olivia’s diagnosis, I thought my life was ruined.
After waiting months and months to see that positive pregnancy test, I thought I’d never get a third child.
Boy was I wrong.
I sat looking through my new scrapbooks that I just made (thank you Groupon!) and I just kept thinking over and over again “I’m so blessed.”
I see pictures of Matt and I with our family and it makes me feel so good. That the two of us feel in love and have cultivated that love into a wonderfully solid marriage. That we added three beautiful children and made a family. All of it makes me feel so very blessed.
I see pictures of Olivia, tons of pictures, with friends, with family, with a huge smile on her face and I think, “Yes! This is a good life.” I mean if I could just add up all those moments I spent thinking these things would never happen for her or for us, you would be shocked. I’d like to go back and smack myself and show her these pictures and this life. My girl is happy and overjoyed. Isn’t that all that matters?
I see pictures of my precious Gabriel. The best and happiest surprise of my life. What on Earth would I do without him? I see pictures of him and how happy and beautiful he is and I think “Yes. It’s the master plan. I may not always see it at the time…but life always turns out the way it should.” To think that I was afraid of his arrival just astounds me. Life is marvelous.
I see pictures of my baby. The one I felt like i waited forever for. The one who completed our little family. I see these pictures and think “Oh my goodness I am so lucky!” What did I do to deserve these four beautiful people in my life? I am so thankful.
I don’t know why I was blessed with Matt and the kids but I do that I am so very thankful. My life is filled with so much happiness and joy. Serious happiness and joy. Even in the midst of all the not-so-good days and the long hours and the heartache, there is joy. So much joy.