My kids are done with school on Friday.
Which means no more respite from Olivia from me between the hours of 8 and 3.
I’m scared. Somebody hold me.
I love summer, always have. I love the no schedule, the weather, the freedom, baseball, swimming, popsicles, vacation and all of that stuff.
But I miss my break. Even though I’m working during the day, it’s just a nice mental break to not have to constantly worry about what Olivia’s doing or what trouble she’s causing.
Because lately? She’s been a total pill. She doesn’t listen, she’s sassy (Geez! Calm down Mommy!), she’s into everything that she’s not supposed to be, she’s making messes, she’s whiny. In short, she’s making me crazy.
I’m so worried that I’m going to be insane by the end of the summer. Literally insane.
Even the pool, which is usually my savior because, even though I can’t be one of those lucky Moms reading a book in a lounge chair, I can mentally relax while she swims. However, we’ve been to the pool 3 times now and I haven’t relaxed one bit. She’s in, she’s out, she’s trying to get into the baby pool, she’s trying to go on the lifeguard walk, she’s trying to go to the deep end, she’s trying to go off the diving board, she’s sitting in other people’s chairs, she’s getting her shoes and throwing them in the water. I’m hoping this is just because the water’s still cold…but I’m scared it’s not.
I’m exhausted just thinking about my summer. And I don’t want to be. I want to enjoy summer. I want to soak it up, so to speak. I’ve just got to figure out a way to do it while keeping Olivia happy and safe.
Wish me luck.