I’ve been struggling quite a bit lately…I’m not sure why. I just haven’t felt myself. I’ve felt really, really…sad. I think there’s been so many emotions in the last year and they are all hitting me now. I think the stress of the past few months has caught up with me. I sort of feel like I’ve lost myself. But I’m slowly climbing out of it. I’m going to take a break here soon…like a whole weekend. Alone. I can’t wait. With risk of sounding really dramatic, I just feel like I need to reconnect with my soul. Do you ever feel that way?
I’ve really been trying to focus on the here and now. I find that when I let that get away from me, I flounder. When I start thinking of the what-ifs and tomorrows and what-might-happens, it gets me down. But it’s easier said than done.
I really wanted to share some !!! moments from the past week…
Matthew saying “Do I get to wear short pants today because it’s hot out?” and “I’m going to get my pace fainted at the carnival!” and “I came in fird place!” and “Indiany Jones” and me not correcting him because it’s way too cute and soon he’ll be too big to say such things.
Olivia dancing at the Talent Show rehearsal and not freaking out because she couldn’t do the moves perfectly like she did in practice. I missed the actual dance but I heard it was great. The show is Wednesday. I can’t wait to see her. I’m going to be a puddle. Remember how badly she wanted to do it last year?
I was asking Matt if he wanted a challenger league baseball shirt from Olivia’s team. He said no, he didn’t need one, but Gabe piped up and said “Make sure to get me one! I want them to know I’m her brother and I cheer for her!” That is what life is about right there.
Olivia’s been practicing her songs for the spring show at her school. I could listen to her sing all day.
The morning bus drivers for Olivia said to me the other day “We just love watching you two together. You have that sparkle between you. Trust me, that’s not always the case. And it’s there with you two.” That made my heart really happy.
Gabe and I got to spend Saturday together. It was raining so my Mom let me drop off the other two while I took Gabe to his soccer game. Then we hit the batting cages and Subway for lunch and topped it off by watching the fourth Harry Potter movie together in the afternoon (he finished the book in 2 weeks!). I love it when we get to spend time together.
Hearing Gabe say “I hope it rains tomorrow so we have indoor recess so I can read!”
It’s all these little things that make a life. That give me true happiness. All the rest is just white noise.
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A weekend to just “be”. I know that feeling all to well. I hope you enjoy it. I think it’s so sweet that Gabe wanted a shirt so everyone would know he was there cheering on his sister. I LOVE that!
“It’s all these little things that make a life. That give me true happiness. All the rest is just white noise.”
I couldn’t have said it better!
Love all the !!!. I had to laugh at Matthew saying “Indiany Jones”. That’s exactly how Pierce says it!!
I think it is this month of the year because I was feeling the same way! Know that we will get through these down times because we really are lucky to have all the !!!! moments in our lives!
Those are some truly beautiful !!!Moments!!
Needing to reconnect with your soul is exactly how I have been feeling! I hope you get your weekend away.
I know exactly how you feel. I have been there myself for a while. Here’s to you and I both having some good, happy times! I think we both deserve it :o)
Your not alone there are many of us feeling similar to what your going thru. Focusing on the good in our lives is the way most of us stay strong but cover up what were really going thru. I commend you in midst or your busy life that your making time for yourself.
A weekend alone sounds divine. I hope you get that time very soon. And my son always says “celihopter,” which makes me smile outside and in. You’re right: that’s what it’s all about.
I love this list of moments of true happiness. Life is made up of these moments, seconds of time we need stop and soak in for those other times, those harder times when life just drains us. I hope you find your place of peace soon and keep soaking up those moments with your amazing kids and wonderful husband.
I love this. Love the story about Gabe and the shirt. Not that I have a crush on him or anything!!!
You deserve a break Just stop thinking about it and just do it!!
Yes I do feel that way sometimes. I hope you get some time to regroup and get back to you.
I’m longing for a “just me” weekend myself. I’ve been cranky lately. I’m behind in so many places in my life. I just need some peace and quiet to catch up. I know exactly how you feel. I hope you find yourself and your happy 🙂
The lines about Gabe wanting a t-shirt so that everyone knows he’s Olivia’s brother??? Well, that just brought the sweetest tear to my eye. And all those cutsie things Matty says? I feel the same way about Keegan. I want him to grow, I want him to learn, but I ADORE the way he talks right here, right now.
I love it Tiffany!! This is a great post. And I too need to reconnect with my self at times, so I know exactly what you are talking about. You are so great at remembering what made your days good. I have a hard time remembering… I need to work on that!
I love how the bus drivers noticed the shared sparkle between you and Olivia. That’s just so lovely. Hoping you get that weekend to yourself to reconect with your soul.