This weekend I did something I’ve never done before. As you know I’ve been working hard on feeling good about myself. My word for 2011, is DONE, remember? I’ve been doing really well. I start every morning by rolling out of bed and saying something positive about myself instead of pinching the fat around my middle. If I catch myself saying something nasty to myself in my head, I admonish myself out loud and make myself say something nice in its place. It’s a good thing I work from home, huh? Otherwise they might have me committed for talking to myself. All week I was good. And you know what? I felt really great. I didn’t have one day where I felt like shit. I felt great. Every. Single. Day. It was bliss. And all that time and space in my head that was wasted with negative thoughts made room for many more uplifting and positive thoughts and ideas. I just hope I can keep it up.
For my birthday in April of 2010 (that’s 9 months ago if you’re not a math guru) I received a spa gift card. And I haven’t used it yet. Excuses, excuses, but the fact is I didn’t make time for myself. So I promised myself the next opportunity I had to use it, I would. So I did. I went and had a spa pedicure and a manicure. I took Olivia’s ipad with me and played games and surfed the net while my feet were soaked, buffed, dipped in hot wax and polished. Then I chatted with the nice woman while she did the same to my hands. It was heavenly. And I deserved it!!
Saturday came and my Mom took the kids for a few hours in the afternoon. Even though I had treated myself the day before, I still felt as though I needed to do something fun just for me. Matt went to a beer tasting with some friends so I was alone. Sure there was laundry and work to be done, but that’s not what I needed. Guess what I did? I went and saw a movie. All by myself. I got popcorn even!! I sat alone and enjoyed 2 hours of thriller-filled bliss watching Natalie Portman in Black Swan while making myself sick on the salty goodness of the popcorn. It’s my new favorite thing…to go see a movie I want to see by myself. I loved it. I didn’t feel stupid like I thought I would. I just felt happy. Because remember? I’m DONE with caring what others think. So I sat alone. Wonderfully alone. For 2 hours. It was awesome. (Thanks, as always, Mom!!)
When was the last time you took yourself on a date? Maybe it’s time!