I like to think I’m honest on here…and real…and positive. But if you ever thought I was fake and unrealistic, I would be so disappointed.
Where is this coming from you might ask?
A blogging friend of mine and I have been talking about a certain blog that kind of, well, hmmm…makes us want to puke. I don’t want to sound snarky…but it’s the truth. It’s written by a Mom whose daughter was born about 6 months ago and was diagnosed with Down’s Syndrome. (If you like this blog, I sincerely apologize and just know it’s a difference of taste.) It’s just too sweet and perfect and the world is always roses and, like I said, when I read it, I want to barf.
So that got me thinking that if I had read that blog right after I had Olivia…or Gabe…or Matthew…that I would have felt like a complete failure. Because I wasn’t at a good point in my motherlife at any of those times. I would have read that blog and said “Well, shit, I don’t wear a retro swimsuit and go to an island all day with my friends in bikinis and their babies and go get pedicures and have time to make awesome graphic design scrapbooks so I may as well just pack up this horse and pony show and be done with motherhood because clearly I suck”. I would have. But now, with some perspective, I shake my head and laugh because I know that’s not my life. Kudos to her if her days really are that magical and special all the time. Mine aren’t.
All this to say, even though I try to have a positive attitude and a great outlook on my life, I hope I don’t make you want to barf. If you see me make hill-billy teeth for a snack and feel like crap because your kids had crackers, please don’t. It’s only on special occasions. Truly. I hope those of you with little ones remember that Olivia is almost 10. I’ve been at this whole special-need-business a while. If you had talked to me when she was 3, 4, 5 or even 6, you wouldn’t have found this same person. To me, it’s a process. And I still have bad days. And I like to think I share them with you.
Just in case you think life is always sunny and positive over here in Elastamom world, I’d like to share 5 not-so-sunny moments of my last week:
1.) Feeling so happy that Matthew’s new pre-school doesn’t have “programs” for holidays and such during the school time because that means I can actually have my 2 hours of peace to get work done
2.) Thinking that I’d much rather spend the day in bed than having to deal with any of my children
3.) Being secretly so glad that Gabe decided not to play travel soccer because it’s less time we have to spend at…well, soccer
4.) Putting up a birthday banner and some balloons for Matthew’s family party and calling it a day…I tossed the streamers in the closet for another party
5.) All 3 of my kids have a TV in their room and I like it. I just got an hour of work done while they watched TV. There was no fighting, no yelling, no messes, just peace. Me love TV.
I know the blogging world is not perfect and there are blogs that get tons of comments that are about nothing but drivel and may make you want to barf. But I hope here at Elastamom you comment and read and come back every day because you know I keep it real.