Olivia does not like change.
So the fact that there were about….let’s see….a million and one changes last week regarding school did not start the year off so well.
This mom is exhausted from worry, from dealing, from everything regarding the first week of school.
It started off two weeks ago with our decision to try ADD medication with Olivia. We have been resisting and resisting for years and finally decided to give it a try. The final push was being at the national conference this year and listening to the other parents talk about how much of a difference it has made with their child. So we did it.
She started off feeling crappy. Then got over that and seemed fine…but no change behavior-wise. We didn’t up her dose seeing as it was the first week of school…and I’m glad I didn’t given what rough start she had.
We started with two separate, one-hour sessions with her special ed teacher, Mrs. G, the two days before school started. It was rough. The school went under major construction over the spring and summer and it looks quite a bit different. Mrs. G’s room is in a different wing and brand-new. Olivia couldn’t handle it. Plus, there was still some construction going on and that drives her insane. Not good.
The first day of school was ok. She cried a little halfway through the day because she was tired and missed me and wanted to go home. But that was it. I was relieved.
Enter Day 2. She’s a little unsure about being there, she missed me, she wants to go home and THEN goes out for lunch recess and they are emptying the dumpsters. It’s super loud. She hates super loud noises. So she freaks out. She refuses to go out for the other recess that day.
Day 3 there’s a new kindergartener in town. He’s non-verbal so he yells and makes loud noises and screams. She is terrified of him. So she pinches, she hits, she freaks out. He also rides her bus. As if that isn’t bad enough, she refuses to go out to lunch recess again. They finally get her outside and have her calm and…wait for it…the monthly tornado siren goes off.
She freaks out, of course, and refuses to go out for afternoon recess. Can you blame her? Guess who’s going in tomorrow for lunch and to try to get her out for recess? Yep, you got it. This is why I work from home.
On top of all of this, her best friend no longer goes to her school. She is, thankfully for her, allowed to go to her home school with her brother and cousins. But Olivia misses her. Now Olivia is the only girl in her grade in Mrs. G’s room; she also now has to share an aide with 2 boys instead of her BFF. Man!!
All week I’ve been driving myself crazy trying to decide if she’s just having a hard time adjusting to all of these changes, if it’s the medication, if it’s being a pre-teen, if it’s just adjusting to the school year while trying to keep my patience with this sweet little girl of mine who is acting like a monster when she gets home because she’s been under so much stress.
It’s been a rough start to the school year. I have my fingers crossed that it will only get better from here.