I sat down to write today and couldn’t. I feel like I have nothing lately. Nothing to say, nothing to give, nothing. I stumbled across this article today and thought “YES!”. This is it. This is exactly it. And it’s hitting me hard lately. I’m so exhausted, emotionally and physically, that I want to give up. I won’t, but that’s how I feel lately. I’m just…tired. This article stated it perfectly and says exactly what I feel. Exactly.
I guess I’m feeling like carrying my cross lately rather than wearing my badge. Today is one of those days where I just can’t pretend that I’m ok. I’m not. Olivia’s been a handfull lately, I feel like all I do is yell, I just want to be alone. I went to pick out a card for Gabe’s birthday (he’ll be 10 on the 24th) and I just started crying. I don’t know why. I don’t know if it’s because he’s 10 and so grown up or if I’m just tired. But I cried. The nice ladies at Hallmark handed me a tissue and made sure I knew it was totally normal to start bawling in the middle of their store.
Life is like that sometimes, right?